Tuesday, 15 August 2017

7 WEEKS PREGNANT | UPDATE

Good morning everyone! Today we're 7 weeks and our first scan is tomorrow.

In terms of symptoms from the past week, I've had a heightened sense of smell (often struggling to make breakfast or cook dinner and don't even get me started on the smell of yogurt! - My fiance eats one every night and I find it so gross), all day and night nausea, hot flushes, feeling extremely thirsty, sore boobs and frequent urination.

I get up about 7 times a night, every night. The main reason is the need to urinate all the time, but acid reflux and nausea is a major issue too. One thing I have noticed is that the period-like cramps have eased off a lot since last week which is good.

If you know of anything that helps with nausea or my issue of not being able to quench my first, please let me know in the comments box below!

Jess. xx

Tuesday, 8 August 2017

6 WEEKS PREGNANT | UPDATE

Today we're 6 weeks and I'm counting down the days until the first scan which is a week tomorrow.

Several things have happened since I last blogged. Firstly I spoke to our clinic about the awful stabbing/ripping type pains I was getting. The nurse was lovely and reassured me that they are probably nothing to worry about. We agreed that it's more than likely down to the changes going on in my body and my ovaries recovering from egg collection. Luckily I haven't felt these pains for 9 days now. 

Another thing that happened was I took a second pregnancy test. Silly I know, but the paranoia kicked in and I needed to see that the pregnancy is still there. The funny thing was the control line and one of the lines in the test window were very weak. I was in a sulk for about two hours thinking the test line was faint. Then after Googling I realised it was the test line that was very strong not the other way around. I hadn't looked at the packet properly!

STRONG PREGNANCY TEST LINE


After that little incident I became super happy again and all reassured. However, all I seem to do is worry. So far I've been scared that the stabbing pains are an ectopic pregnancy, that the period-like cramps are a miscarriage (or even part of an ectopic pregnancy) and that if I cry and get a bit emotional that this could lead to a miscarriage too. 

I get so many strange aches and pains and they seem to fuel my paranoia even more. For example today I sat down on a chair and it felt like someone had stabbed me in the bum! What was that all about? Who knows!

Over the past 7 days symptoms have included feeling very emotional (where I want to cry for no reason), hot, nauseous (this seems to be getting worse!) and incredibly thirsty all the time. I've also had period-like cramps, continuous sore boobs and some really strange dreams. I urinate all the time (I got up about 7 times one night!) and am incredibly very tired.

Today I'm feeling a little bit ill with a mild sore throat and have been sleeping on and off all day. 

Roll on to when we hit 12 weeks as apparently that's when all the crazy symptoms start to get a little bit better. At least that's what one of my best friends told me, who I happened to confide in during this week. So now my mum, sister and one of my friends know. 

Jess. xx

Tuesday, 1 August 2017

5 WEEKS PREGNANT | UPDATE

We're officially 5 weeks today and I'm going around like the cat that's got the cream! I still can't believe that we're this lucky and IVF worked for us on the first go. I feel so blessed. Of course it's early days so we can't get too ahead of ourselves just yet. We have the first scan two weeks tomorrow at which point I'll be 7+1.


A few days after the clinic confirmed our positive blood test I decided to POAS (pee on a stick!) just so I could get the feeling of seeing a positive result. The second line came up straight away and it was amazing to see after years of viewing negative results.

In terms of symptoms I'm getting very mild acid reflux at least once a day, mild nausea and feeling very tired so I usually take a nap in the afternoon! I also feel really thirsty and urinate frequently. On the day my period would have been due I had really bad period-like cramps which felt just like when I'm about to come on. Since then these have eased up a lot and I'm barely noticing them anymore.

I'm still getting these awful stabbing/ripping type pains though (mainly on the lower left side but sometimes on the right) which I believe are something to do with my ovaries. I'm not sure why this is happening but I'm guessing it could be my body recovering from egg collection. I'll ask the clinic when I go in a few weeks.


Another thing I've noticed is I'm still incredibly bloated which I believe is partly down to the progesterone I'm taking. My belly looks very pregnant which is crazy considering I'm only 4 weeks. I went to a party at the weekend and was really paranoid that people might wonder why I look so fat. It's that bad that it's hard to disguise and when I saw the photos afterwards I couldn't help but think 'wow, I am looking pretty big at the mo!'. I'm normally a size 10 so having a large belly is a bit alien to me.

That said, this could be a good thing as it might mean that both of our embryos have embedded. Fingers crossed! Apparently twin pregnancies are very different to singletons and you get everything in double from the get go! So that's double the bloatedness, weight-gain, pains, tiredness, nausea and anything else I might be experiencing at the time. If I really am pregnant with twins I'll have progesterone coming from each one as well as the the extra progesterone I'll be taking throughout the first 3 months!

Exciting times!

Jess. xx


Thursday, 27 July 2017

THE PREGNANCY BLOOD TEST RESULTS

We didn't have too long to wait for our pregnancy blood test results as the clinic called at 12.30. I'm really pleased to say that it was positive so we're officially 4 weeks pregnant! I'm really excited and we have our first scan booked for a few weeks! 

Jess. xx


IVF BLOG DAY 50 | OFFICIAL TEST DAY

Today is our OTD (Official Test Day) so this morning we made the one hour drive to the hospital and I had a HCG (Pregnancy) blood test. We now have to wait for the results to be forwarded to the Fertlity Clinic and a Nurse Co-ordinator will ring us with the news by the end of today.

I'll be sure to update you all once I know!

Today I'm feeling: Nervous. 


Jess. xx


Wednesday, 26 July 2017

IVF BLOG DAY 49 | 2WW | LATEST SYMPTOMS

We only have one day to go until it's official test day. Oh yeah! We're now 13DPT (13 days past transfer) and I'm feeling so pleased that I didn't cave and test early. (Other than when I tested to see if the trigger shot was still in my system! You can read about that here.).

Today I'm feeling really positive and excited. It's crazy how one day I feel down and on another I feel like I do today. It's all that progesterone from the Crinone Gel playing havoc with my hormones. What a game this is.

Anyway, tomorrow I have to go to the hospital and have a HCG (Pregnancy) blood test by 11.30am. The results will be rung through to the Fertility Clinic by early afternoon and a Co-ordinator will ring me with the result.

Here's a final update with the symptoms I've been experiencing since ET:

10DPT

Sunday 23rd July 2017: I had bad period-like cramps all morning on and off. By 2pm they felt really bad. Just like when I'm about to come on. They were also really bad around 10pm and lasted about 20-30 mins.

11DPT

Monday 24th July 2017: In the morning I had a twinge on the left hand side of my womb again and was peeing for England. I had no idea why as I hadn't drank any caffeine which would have been the cause pre-ivf when I was allowing myself to have it! I also had bright pink blood in the Crinone Gel and period-like pains around 8pm. By 8.47pm I was getting the twinge in the left hand side of my womb. It does make me wonder what on earth is going on in there!

12DPT

Tuesday 25th July 2017: I felt sick in the middle of the night and when I woke up the smell of toast cooking made me feel a bit queasy. This is unusual for me as I love toast and eat it most days! I also noticed that the bloated heavy belly was back so I had to undo my skinny jeans. At some point I had the twinge on my left hand side of my womb again and by 10pm I felt really tired. I was also feeling sick and incredibly bloated to the point where I had to lay on my side.

13DPT

Wednesday 26th July 2017: That's today! It's only 10.30am so there's not much to report as yet other than this morning I woke up having hot flushes. These continued for about an hour or so but I feel alright now. My belly is still pretty bloated so I've decided to stay in my PJ's for the day! 

Here's an updated summary of all the symptoms I've had in total:

Total Symptoms (ET-13DPT)

Feeling bloated / heavy stomach

Mild period-like pains / cramps

Strong period-like pains / cramps

Painful twinges

Strange piercing feeling in the centre of my womb

Extreme tiredness 

Sore nipples

Blood spotting

Feeling sick

Feeling queasy

Back ache

Diarrhoea (ever since I started using Crinone Vaginal Gel).

Weight loss (because of the above! - not much, just a few lbs).

Feeling down/moody/emotional/like crying sometimes

Hot flushes

Frequent urination

I think it's important to note that most or all of these symptoms are more than likely down to the Crinone Gel (progesterone) that I am still taking. Progesterone mimics pregnancy symptoms so analysing them in terms of pregnancy would just drive me mad. Many women get their BFPs after experiencing no symptoms at all. This has certainly been the case for me when being pregnant in the past. I had no idea both times.

Anyway....

Today I'm feeling: Happy, excited, positive and glad that we're going to know one way or the other by tomorrow!

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who's been reading this blog (my stats show me that you're there!). I'll update you all with what happens tomorrow. No matter what the outcome is I'll be back at some point to either give you pregnancy updates or to talk about what we'll be doing next. 

There's a subscribe box in the side-bar on the right of this blog if you want to get updates every time I post.

Good luck if you're on an IVF or pregnancy journey of your own!

Jess. xx

Sunday, 23 July 2017

IVF BLOG DAY 46 | 2WW | UPDATE & MORE SYMPTOMS

Wow! So we've been going through the whole IVF thing for 46 days now. It feels like it's flown by in some kind of drugged up bubble. Then again, it has to be said that the 2WW kinda goes by slow. For me personally it's been a real rollercoaster of emotions where I never know how I'm going to feel about it all from one day to the next. You'll see what I mean if you read on.

We're now 10DPT (10 days past transfer) after having a 2DT (2 day transfer). Today I'm feeling pretty good overall. I found the first week difficult but things have got better as we've progressed into the second. My thoughts became quite negative around 3DPT with me feeling sad that we only get one go at IVF via the NHS. I confided in my fiance on Tuesday who said 'well if it doesn't work then we'll just have to find the money'. Needless to say after that I cheered up a bit!

Anyway, as before, I've been keeping a note of my symptoms so here's a little update of what's been going on:

3DPT

Sunday 16th July 2017: After feeling sick, bloated, lethargic and like I had a really heavy stomach the day before (you can read about that here) it was a relief that I felt normal on this day. Too normal actually to the point where I was like 'hang on, where have all my symptoms gone?'. It's funny how they feel bad when you have them but once there gone you kinda want them back. Just in case they're signs of pregnancy. You hold on to that every bit of hope. Anyway the symptoms were soon back by the evening where I had sore nipples and a heavy bloated belly again!

4DPT

Monday 17th July 2017: On this day I experienced blood spotting in the Crinone Vaginal Gel, sore nipples and period-like cramps. At 9pm the cramps got particularly painful. I felt bloated and had a strange twinge/pain on my left side (probably where my ovary is if I'm honest). By 8pm the twinge was pulsating to the point where I could count the seconds between each one. It was so strange and I had to stop what I was doing and lay down. 

I must also mention that in the morning I had a call to say there were no embryos good enough to freeze. Out of the 5 left one had made it to blastocyst stage which I was advised to take as a good sign for the two that we had put back in. 

Knowing that we have no frosties started to make me worrying about our chances being taken away even more. What if this cycle doesn't work out? What on earth are we going to do?

5DPT

Tuesday 18th July 2017: I had a good night's sleep but woke up at 7.30am with the painful pulsating twinges on my left side again. Just like the day before I could count the seconds between them, although it would vary and sometimes be 4 seconds or sometimes as long as 10! I also felt very bloated on this day.

The worrying continued and I confided in my finace who reassured me that we could try to find the money for another go if we needed to. I felt a lot better after hearing that.

6DPT

Wednesday 19th July 2017: Not sure what happened on this day as I haven't written anything down!

7DPT

Thursday 20th July 2017: As above!

8DPT

Friday 21st July 2017: This was the day that things really changed for me as I decided that the best thing I can do is get on with my life during the 2WW, almost pretending that none of this is happening. I know that's much easy said than done but I got on and cleaned my house (without using cleaning products because my consultant advised me to be careful of them. Oh, and I left the hoovering to my fiance as apparently that can be bad too!). I was determined that by the next day I would be getting up and dressed and out of my pj's that I've been slobbing around in for about 45 days!

Symptoms wise, I had a really strange piercing feeling right in the centre of my womb. It was very prominent and not like anything I've ever felt before. The only way I can describe it is a bit like a piercing or a needle going in and it was on the edge of being painful. It lasted about 5-10 seconds and I couldn't help but wonder if it was an implantation pain?

9DPT

Saturday 22nd July 2017: I had very strong period-like pains for about 4 hours on and off during the night. It was so bad it would wake me up. I also had blood spotting in the Crinone Vaginal Gel again which was a little out of the blue after not having this for 4/5 days. Again, I couldn't help but wonder if implantation had occurred the day before. This really is classic symptom checking/analysing at it's best! But if someone told me I'm pregnant and to put money on when implantation had occurred Fri 21st would be it! 

Here's an updated summary of all the symptoms I've had so far:

Symptoms so Far (ET-9DPT)

Feeling bloated / heavy stomach

Mild period-like pains / cramps

Strong period-like pains / cramps

Painful twinges

Strange piercing feeling in the centre of my womb

Extreme tiredness 

Sore nipples

Blood spotting

Feeling sick

Back ache

Some I've forgotten to mention!

Diarrhoea (ever since I started using Crinone Vaginal Gel).

Weight loss (because of the above! - not much, just a few lbs).

Feeling down/moody/emotional/like crying sometimes

Hot flushes

Today I'm feeling: Happy enough in myself. Really grateful to have such a loving and supportive fiance who's been great through all of this. Glad that I'm not so bloated anymore and I wore my skinny jeans for the first time in ages today. (A good thing or not? I don't know - you tell me!). I could wear them for ages because I felt so bloated and it would hurt the places where I had my injections.

It's only 4 days until OTD (Official Test Day) now! That's a good point actually - I found a box of pregnancy tests upstairs so I must get my fiance to hide them!

Jess. xx

7 WEEKS PREGNANT | UPDATE

Good morning everyone! Today we're 7 weeks and our first scan is tomorrow. In terms of symptoms from the past week, I've had a h ...