Friday, 1 September 2017


I'm now 9+3, only there was no heartbeat found whilst having an emergency scan last Sat (you can read that post here). At that point I was 8+4 and measuring at approx 8+3. I'm having what's known as a missed miscarriage. Call it what you like, delayed miscarriage, silent miscarriage. It's all the same thing. My baby or fetus has died but my body is still holding on. There's no bleeding and suddenly I've been faced with a big decision to make.

After having the scan on Sat it was 3 days before I spoke to the Early Pregnancy Unit about what I could possibly do. It was 4 days before I was seen and scanned and 5 days before I took some vaginal pessaries (Misoprostol) in a bid to medically manage the miscarriage. That was yesterday morn.

The vaginal pessaries did not work. I rang the hospital today and was seen early afternoon. I was given 4 more pessaries to try (I had to insert these all in one go). But whilst at home and trying to insert the first one, I found all the others inside. Still intact and completely undissolved. I picked them out one by one and put them on a tissue, totally dismayed.

I rang the hospital once again and we agreed that perhaps I should take the tablets orally instead. Off to the hospital we went for the second time today to pick up another pill. This time I put them in my mouth (between the gums and cheek) and I left them there for an hour. Then I swirled them around a bit and then put them back between my cheeks and gums.

Eventually I swallowed the chalky pulp, which didn't really taste of anything at all. It's now been nearly 4 hours since I first put them in. Other than a sore throat I'm currently feeling nothing at all. I'll keep you all updated on what happens next. Fingers crossed this works as tomorrow it will be 1 week since no heartbeat was seen.

Having a miscarriage is bad enough, but this is like being tortured because it's just going on and on. I feel like I'm stuck in a nightmare and totally in limbo land. I'm scared of what's going to happen and how bad it will be. I'm sick of being stuck in the house and unable to get on with my normal life.

Jess. xx


  1. Hi Jess, I'm so sorry to hear you are going through this. Is everything over now, i.e. the miscarriage? How are you holding up? xx

    1. Hi Kiran. I ended up having an emergency operation a few days ago and am now recovering. I'll write a new blog post soon to explain what happened. Thanks for reading. Jess. xx




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